Forget

We were close until you suddenly stopped talking to me. That was a year ago. After I visited you and we had a lot of fun and you said you'd come visit me. You never did. I never saw you again. In the fall when I texted you, you asked if I was Kyle. So I know you deleted me from your phone. When I replied I am Karin, you did not respond. I know it's been a year. You have probably forgotten about me. But I still think of you once in awhile. You were in my dream last night, which made me miss you even more. We used to have so much fun together. And that is what I miss. There is nobody else in this world like you. I don't have anyone in my life even remotely like you. And FUCK, how could you just drop out of my life like that? You still talk to Amanda. You never gave me an explanation. A part of me wants to give our friendship another chance. But a part of me feels like that is not a good idea because it know's I will get rejected. I've made it this long without you, I don't need you. I am "happy" without you in my life. I don't need you. Why can't I just forget about this all? Forget you ever existed. Forget everything. Now you're in my dreams. Why can't I just fucking forget?